Sunday, May 25, 2014

Shower Buddies

17th March, 2014

"Shower buddies"
That's what the message said.
I can't even remember where I was. It was a Monday night. The boys were with my Sweet P.
And this message came through....

"Shower buddies"

"They were very, very, very happy that night" he says to me tonight when I quiz him.
"What do you mean?"
"They were giggling and connecting and being so beautiful in the water together. As brothers".

I love these two. So very much. 
I love these four. 

I am so blessed and bewildered to have them all in my life. May every Woman know such love as I. 

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

And his love

6th May, 2014

This day finds both Sweet P & I at home. We both have a thousand things we 'should' be doing. Instead, when I pick Little J up from Kindy I ask him if he'd like a baby 'cino at his favourite cafe.

His reply? Determined, clear & delivered with absolute certainty.
"No Mama. I don't want a 'cino. I want an ice-cream".

And so it was, that we braved the cold wind and the sideways rain to find ourselves alone in the gelato shop. 
Me & my boy. And his love. 

two flavours. first time. chocolate & strawberry. perfection. 

Tuesday, July 9, 2013


6th June, 2013

And just so amazing.

Funny, sweet, cheeky, determined, clever, climber, patient, impatient, ball throwing, wise, possessive, happy. Loved.

So loved.

Thank you sweet Tashi, for every little moment we cherish.


January 2nd, 2012

When I look at these pics I took of my baby boy, my heart nearly bursts. 
I am so proud, so joyful, so grateful that he is my boy. That I am his Mama.
That I am the one he wraps his arms around. That I am the one that he looks to for guidance.
That this sweet soul chose to journey with me. His gifts to me are boundless. 
A celebration. 

a celebration...

January 8th, 2012

Our sweet baby boy turned two years old.
A celebration...

dear friends & family, 

cricket & cake,

a wonderful day.

Many memories made, and many decisions too.
Bless you Sweet Jasper Moon. We love you beyond comprehension. Beyond galaxies. Beyond life.

Saturday, June 29, 2013


29th June, 2013

2 boys + 2 tools + 1 large branch = hours of busyness

M ~ " It's a sculpture, Mama. We made it for Hummy"

24 hours later....

M ~ "Mama could we sell it on Ebay?"

Monday, June 17, 2013

the four capes

21st May, 2012

The four coloured playsilks. The four capes. The four personalities of this Gemini today.
The photo? Because every Gemini needs an audience.

Sunday, June 16, 2013

of being fully

May 15th, 2013

I love this shot.
I love the movement. I love the laughter. I love the bandaid, 10 days old and stinky.

But mostly I love what is not seen.
I see a boy who was a baby, one year ago. I see a boy who has been waiting, ever so patiently.
I see a boy, overflowing with the joy of being fully in my frame. While the littler baby is out of frame, not having his one year photographs taken.
I see all that I've missed so much and all I can't wait to enjoy.
JM you are the happy in my heart. My love for you is boundless. x Mama

Wednesday, May 29, 2013


March, 2012

14th ~ Reading

21st ~ Dancing

8th ~ Library 

If only he'd sleep in bed. At 11am. When I want him to.
We cuddle up together at 11, we snuggle in & I smell his (still) baby skin. His soft curls fall against my cheek & I wrap my arm around his round belly. He holds my hand & cuddles my arm. It feels so good.

In the midst of the talk about new-baby, about big-brother, about change. It feels so very good, to have these moments together. I cherish them with all my heart. My womb-space longs for his babyhood, for the need to protect it & make it last as-ever-as-long-as-I-can. My heart breaks open with the sweetness of him. So tiny & so big.
So much love contained in one little body.

But sleep at 11 he does not.

Instead he loves it too. He sinks into it and soaks it all up. He cannot sleep for the joy of our embrace.
Instead he falls asleep later. And then he's awake much later at night than somebody only just 2 should be.
And really, I don't mind a bit x

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

He does not budge

May 25th, 2011

We like to walk. We need to walk. And wander.
If I'm in the garden, pulling weeds or visiting the plants, little J will take me by the hand. He looks at me with those big beautiful eyes, they inquire and decide in the same moment. He leads me down the driveway and onto the road. There's no way to refuse. I call for little M, "Let's go for a walk Milo, hurry". "What about the door Mama? Have you got the keys? Where are we going Mama?"
Nevermind the details, lets wander together.
And so we do.
Along and around and up and across and back. It never takes long before this little wanderer decides he will only walk on the road and not the grass. I'm patient. I gently lift him onto the grass, I hold his chubby little hand, I coax. He does not budge. He walks onto the road. I'm patient, I coax. And around we go again. And then I carry him home. Frustrated by his stubbornness and grateful for this closeness.
And just a teeny bit nervous about what's to come...