Wednesday, February 20, 2013

They were good ones

20th February, 2013


"Dear Granny & Pop,   

My house is a mess, the washing needs to be put away. Milo has a new friend coming to play tomorrow with his Mum. I really should be tidying up but it’s driving me crazy that I haven’t been in touch for soooooo long and so I left my dishrag on the bench, wiped my hands on my apron and sat down here to type.
I miss you both so much. Every time we think we have carved out a way to visit, the winds blow in and the sands change. You are in my thoughts all of the time. Milo often talks of you both and asks when we can visit again. Did you get the seeds he sent you? 
He wanted to send you a gift thought that all farmers need seeds, so he chose those.
They were good ones from diggers. I hope they took.

Milo is in Class 1. He came home yesterday talking about Degarni, the Dangerous Dragon who lives in the Deep Dark Dungeon. They are learning letters. IT makes me so happy and also so surprised that he is already this ‘old’. I thought that sitting at a desk would be a challenge for him but he seems to be doing well. We have a parent/teacher interview tonight so I guess I will soon find out if his teacher thinks so too.

Jasper is 3!!! Thank you for the cards you send on our birthdays. We so love to receive them. Jasper is a delight. He is soo funny. Such a great sense of humour. He is my soft one. He will be my baby long after Noah I think. He is also STUBBORN. Bloody redheads :-)    He wants to go to a ballet class. I think he got the idea from cousin Mia. He asks me every single day. I’m taking him for a trial next week. 

Noah is 8 months. Just a couple of weeks ago, when he was still 7 months, he learned to sit up alone, crawl properly and pull himself to standing (one handed). All in one week.
He is in a hurry. Still no teeth. He wont let me feed him with a spoon, he will only eat what he can feed himself. He has a crazy bad temper. But is so determined. These children sure can tach us a lot.....! He is lovely. He laughs all the time at Jasper and Milo , its the sweetest thing to hear your children giggling together. 

Paul is playing heaps of music these days. We have made some wonderful new friends in Balnarring, all musical, openhearted, peaceful folk. We are Blessed to have such good people in our lives. Still he doesn’t like his job. I hate that he has to go and do something everyday that he hates so much. 

Me.... ?
Married 11 years this coming Saturday! Married with 3 children even. I am not qualified for this level of responsibility. I think there must have been a mix up somewhere.
I am so IN THIS. There is little room for anything else. I need to be patient and know that it will come soon enough. My biggest challenge is organisation. I want it. I desire it. I constantly strive for it. And yet, I also reject it. I am rebelling against myself it seems!

How are you both? I am so pleased to hear your news about the farm. Are are the new house plans coming along? What will you do with Chocco?

So much love to you both. Always.

x Julie, Paul, Milo, Jasper & Noah "

(Photo from 27th August, 2012 ~ that's 5 months ago!!!)

Friday, February 15, 2013

I have this friend...

15th February, 2013

I have this friend.
She is a light worker. What ever that means.
She is the one who first taught me to 'follow the light'.
She is the one I turn to in my sadness. And in my joy.
In my confusion she holds my hand, and weaves a cord from my tangled web back towards the light.
She is my Sister. She is my Mother. She is my Midwife.

She is my Angel.
And together we travel this endless cycle. BirthLifeDeath.
I am Blessed.

Saturday, February 2, 2013


2nd February, 2013

I've lost my ability to edit. Never one of my strong points, but now it seems as the months pass by so quickly and the moments to reflect are so few, I want to remember everything. Every detail, every expression, every sound, every emotion. And I am so overwhelmed with that.
I (finally) finished editing a family photo session today. There are twice as many photographs to present as there 'should' be. Because I cannot know which moments that Mama wants to remember, and so I gave her them all.

But it's not just my photographs. Editing is needed in every area of my life right now.

Or maybe it's Lilith.
Moon in Scorpio.
Head in hands.

(image source unknown)

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